Thursday, November 15, 2007
Heart is Central
I looked up to a very good pastor, teacher, preacher, and minister—so I thought. This man preached the word with boldness, sincerity, and passion. I thought if anyone had it together—it was him. I loved to hear him preach—because he motivated me to become a better Christian, to live it out, to be real, to be passionate, etc.
A few weeks ago I found out that this man had been cheating on his wife for years—maybe with more than one woman. I don’t know the exact details of the situation, and probably only him and God knows. But I wonder if he was purposely living a double life, or was it something he struggled with and did not overcome it. Now, I’m not taking up for him, because I know that this is serious and should not be taken lightly, but let’s look at this from a spiritual standpoint.
Obviously, the man had experienced God deeply—because of the fruit that produced from his ministry, the sermons he spoke, and the love he had for ministry. I don’t believe that this man could have just been in ministry for the fun of it. Trust me it’s hard dealing with people!
The Bible says that Satan walks around like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8). Jesus said that he came to give abundant life, but Satan came to KILL, STEAL, and DESTROY (John 10:10). Satan has been attacking from the beginning—to see man fall—especially a leader or men in ministry. If he destroys them—he can change the hearts of many.
Let’s talk about King David. This was a man after God’s own heart. He was a man that was loved by God and loved God. He was a huge leader, even a KING. What happened? There was an attack by Satan by showing him a NAKED WOMAN and then entertaining those thoughts. He became captivated by those thoughts until they became action. Those actions caused more actions—even to the point of MURDER. Surely God must have said then that he was no longer a man after His own heart. Nope! He did require that he repent but it did not change the fact that he loved God and God loved him.
To me this proves that a man can love God, be passionate about God, know the things of God, and even know God, but still be deceived and brought down by the enemy.
We must realize there is a war going on all around us. A war that we are in—whether we choose to fight in it or not—we are in a battle. We can’t see it maybe, but if we are sensitive to the situations around us we will begin to see it.
I don’t know the heart of this man—but I do know that neither does the countless Christians who rip him apart with their slandering words. Wow, a great Christian perspective—to tear people down when they’ve already fallen by an attack by Satan. We should see it as an opportunity to restore a brother in Christ, but instead we act surprised that someone in leadership would allow Satan to have a stronghold in their lives. We live in a state of being thinking that Christianity is like living in fairytale land where we have no problems, no struggles, and that preachers are the Christ. They are not. They are humans who are in the same battle as everyone else.
I would hate to know who would stand by me if I were to fall. All it takes is one time to allow Satan to come in and get a stronghold in your life.
We have put Christianity in a box of principles and feelings. No longer do we hold true to what Jesus taught. Oh, we say that we are not like the religious leaders—“it’s about Grace not law,” we say. But in reality—we are just like the Pharisees, the religious leaders—with our rules, regulations, principles, and fitting in a box. If someone does not fit in our TINY box—they must be of the devil.
Our hearts are central. Proverbs 4:23 says,"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." Satan knows that and our hearts are constantly under attack from the time we are born.
We should be about the business of restoring hearts—not just telling people how to live. The captives are to be set free and hearts restored, not judging and tearing down. Our war is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and rulers of darkness (Eph. 6:12).
Yes I was disappointed in this man—and actually felt like a wound to my own heart. Satan is probably having a field day over this situation—people doubting their salvation, doubting Christianity, giving up hope, and tearing up other Christians—which is allowing him in to their lives for a stronghold. See how he works—so deceptive. But the problem with deception is that you don’t know you’re being deceived.
We must remember we are at war, not put our faith in man but Christ, and come back to the heart of the matter—restoring hearts.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Prosperity Gospel
Although, I do believe God wants us to prosper. Am I being a hypocrite or two-face? No. Let me tell you what I mean.
I do not believe that God wants my marriage to fail. One reason is because marriage represents Christ and the church. I believe God wants my marriage to be the best marriage and represent a true example of Him. I believe that he wants his kingdom work to be successful and prosper. To make as many disciples of Him that I can and lead people in the right direction. Do you think God wants more or less people to be saved, restored, and brought back to Him? Common sense will tell you more. I hear many people say that God does not desire that we become prosperous, but yet when they receive great things they give credit to God, such as a new house, car, clothes, new job, etc. Also, the other thing that bothers me is the people who preach against prosperity--that God does not want them to prosper, and tell everyone to sell everything they have and give to the poor (which is what Jesus teaches)--they preach in a suit and tie (which by the way costs them at least $250-$1000 a piece), using tv, internet, and driving a nice car—(compared to the rest of the world, who have NO cars). They give to causes and missions and want someone to give them a pat on the back for doing the right thing—when in all actualality they’ve done nothing really. It’s kind of out of sight, out of mind. There is no real “hands on” to what Jesus taught. Then they preach against prosperity and that no one should have it and what they are doing is just as wrong. I can give you numerous scriptures of God telling his people they will be blessed and prosperous—in the land—not just heaven (Deut. 5:33 and alot more in Deut., 1Kings 2:3, Psalm 1, etc--just search it yourself--so far I've found over 80 times it states it). I can also give you scriptures about selling everything you have and giving to the needy (Mark 10:21, Luke 18:22, etc.).
What am I saying? I’m saying that there is a balance. God does want us to prosper—because he tells us in His word, but he also wants us to give to the needy and seek the Giver and not the gifts. He blesses us to be a blessing to others—not to hoard it all for ourselves. It works hand in hand. It’s a PROMISE, not a maybe, in Malachi that we will be blessed by giving. There are spiritual laws set up just like the laws of gravity. The law of reaping and sowing is one of them. Do we bless only so we can be blessed then? By no means! Remember when Jesus appeared on the scene he said it’s all about the heart. I see the religious people of His time very much like the church people of today. They give their money, tell people how to live, to give everything, act like they’re doing everything right—when in their heart it’s the wrong motive.
I believe that we are to prosper, even as our soul prospers--3 John 1:2. But I do believe that we are to seek the giver—not the gift.
I think too often people choose one extreme or the other of a spectrum. For instance, the phrases do not drink or smoke because your body is a temple. But yet they don’t hold it to the fact of filling their body of junk food, watching bad shows, music, or any other thing. Then there are those that say we’ll if that’s the way it is—I’ll do all of it. Some say not to have non-Christian friends because they will influence you—to not be of the world. Yet Jesus was IN the world and not of it—and hung out with very non-Christian like people. The list goes on and on and you see what I’m saying. People always want to be on one side of the extreme and keep going and going. There are denominations that are very charismatic—then there are those that believe it’s all fake.
We work in balance. All throughout the word there is a balance. God’s character works in a balance—He is love and mercy, yet he is also just and punishable. In Ecclesiastes—there is a time for this and a time for that…
In conclusion, my advice, I guess, would be to not hear one scripture and go to the extreme—know the word. All of it. There is balance in the word.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Not knowing what to expect we went to the doctor Tuesday, anxiously waiting to see what the sex of the baby was going to be. Deep down we both kind of thought that it was going to be a boy but not totally sure. We walked in with a VHS tape because that's what the doctor told us to bring. I was a little disappointed about that and thought that the ultrasound would probably suck. When we walked in they informed us that they had just gotten a brand new machine last week. We had been to the doctor a month ago and thought they were going to determine the sex then, but did not do the ultrasound at all and we were confused to why. Now I know that God was working it together for us to have the best! If we follow Him, He promises to give us the desires of our heart.
Anyway, as we began to look at the ultrasound the doctor asked us if we wanted to guess what it was going to be--and we both said, "A boy." He said--yes! Wow--a million thoughts began to race through my mind: the responsibility of raising a Godly Man, playing ball, playing guitar (of course), treating ladies right, and on and on and on... Yes those thoughts raced through my mind as I watched the screen of a little boy that could not be still for anything. He moved around like an acrobat. Julie had already said that he moves around allot, but I could to actually see it first hand. At one point, it even looked like he throws a mean punch--to which Julie said she will keep on record to hold over his head one day--you know always be prepared!
I wanted to share with everyone the details of "Brian Junior." No, that's not going to be his name but I told Julie he looks just like his daddy! It was amazing to watch the baby inside and how much he had grown since the last time we got to see him. I plan to put some more of the pictures up when I get a chance.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
How do I love thee...
How do I love thee, Let me count the ways...
From the depth, to the height,
As your face shines so bright,
Your beauty, your presence,
Your character, your patience,
On and on I will count for days,
How wonderful--you and your ways!
Monday, September 24, 2007
I have to do what?
As I came home tonight from ULM, I prayed for a while just reminding myself how great it is to be restored to the father. That he restored my relationship with Him to be able to walk and talk with him in the cool of the day as Adam did from the very beginning. I desire to be intimate with God, and to spend time with my family. God reminded me during our conversation that we allow all these things to come in to take up our time away from Him and family. During this stressful time I MUST make priorities. HIM, Family, Ministry and Job. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33. We must first seek HIM! If we don't--then nothing else will be as it should be.
Family is definitely second. Lately I've been reading the Old Testament in the Message version of the Bible (which is very good by the way), and I've noticed how important family is to God. Even in the new testament--Ephesians talks about the importance of marriage--representing Christ and the Church. No wonder Satan has a field day on marriage--if he can mess up a marriage, it will mess up the view the world has on Christ and the Church. Family is the first mission field. If we are not good stewards of our own home, then what makes us think we can minister to others?
Then take care of the rest.
I know this is simple basic teaching that we learn from an early age--but we so often and easily forget.
Wow. All I was going to sit down and type was that I don't have anything to say--but there it is for now!
Saturday, August 4, 2007
School's out! School's in?
Sunday, July 29, 2007
What are we created for?
His pastor has started involving the church in ministering to the community. He said the pastor made a comment that he didn't believe in fishing with one kind of bait to only receive one kind of fish--instead fish with a net and bring all the fish in. It bothered this guy because the pastor was trying to include black people. I listened for a little while and simply said, "Looks like your pastor is on the mark with what Jesus set the example for." Not what he was wanting to hear.
I told him that this summer I have led my students in missions and we have looked at scriptures about what we should be doing in our own community--that the first week this summer we spent in a black trailer park. He said yeah--but did they come to your church. I said none have yet, but that doesn't mean they shouldn't. I told him that if the church was really the church--there would be no need for welfare or things like that. We should be accomplishing these things through the love of Christ. Jesus never said--only help those who help themselves--he just said help!
He replied that I was technically correct but he just couldn't see giving his hard earned money to someone who lays around and does nothing. (again missing the point)
I began to think about what Jesus said about the rich.
Mathew 19
21Jesus answered, "If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me."
22When the young man heard this, he went away sad, because he had great wealth.
Until recently did I realize that this is a perfect picture of just about every American. If your reading this--you are rich. You have a computer or access to one, and numerous other things like a car, which only 8% of the world have. We are RICH! And it is very hard for us to let go of our possessions to give to others who are in need.
The "man" this weekend also said--"you know my dad loved God more than anybody, but he would look a black guy in the eye and say--'Don't disrespect me #%*ger!'"
In the book of 1John, chapter 4 talks about REAL LOVE. If we say we love God and hate our brother--then we are a liar.
The way of God is straight and narrow. Only a few go through. When Jesus appeared on the scene in flesh he began to show the Pharisees and religious leaders it was about the heart--not outward actions. If our hearts are right--it will show!
A good friend of mine told me something lately that I have decided is very true. I used to think to myself--people better get used to all races together because they're going to be in heaven with them. But my friend said--they better get used to it because they're going to be in hell with them.
Look at Mathew 7
21"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' 23Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'
I am in no way perfect or do I claim to be. I know that my spirit is righteous because of the blood of Jesus and that my flesh still messes up. But I do think that sometimes we don't take the Lord serious and for the most part there are people sitting in churches who are lost and think they are going to heaven. We must be changed from the inside out and see the Love of Christ spread all around us!
I leave you with a quote from the book Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell:
The church doesn't exist for itself; it exists to serve the world. It is not ultimately about the church. When the church loses sight of this, it loses its heart. This is especially true today in the world we live in where so many people are hostile to the church, many for good reason. We reclaim the church as a blessing machine not only because that is what Jesus intended from the beginning but also because serving people is the only way their perceptions of church are ever going to change. This is why it is so toxic for the gospel when Christians picket and boycott and complain about how bad the world is. This behavior doesn't help. It makes it worse. It isn't the kind of voice Jesus wants his followers to have in the world. Why blame the dark for being dark? It is far more helpful to ask why the light isn't as bright as it could be.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
The Tree
God has really been showing me a few things lately through a tree on my back porch. This tree was given to Julie last year by her mom. During the winter months we put the tree in a green house but never watered it all year. The lack of water and the heat from the light in the green house killed the plant. Let me describe it for you: when we took the plant out of the green house it was completely dry and fragile. There was no moisture in the plant including the roots. We checked the plant out completely, and we thought of even throwing it away and starting over. I convinced Julie to replant the tree and as we did I remembered the story of Jesus speaking to the fig tree. I also thought about how he breathed on the disciples. So I combined those two stories--I spoke to the plant and commanded it to come to life and bloom, and then I breathed on it. I didn't think twice about what I was doing because I know that those of whom God has called--he believes they can do everything he did. Julie looked at me and just smiled like--"your crazy." I thought--well maybe I am, but after all how many people in the Bible sound logical. We continued to water the plant and after about two months the plant began to get a little color back to the stems and eventually--became a beautiful tree. The picture above is the actual plant that I took a picture of yesterday. 4 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to these bones and say to them, 'Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! 5 This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath [a] enter you, and you will come to life. 6 I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.' "
7 So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.
9 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe into these slain, that they may live.' " 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.
11 Then he said to me: "Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel. They say, 'Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off.' 12 Therefore prophesy and say to them: 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: O my people, I am going to open your graves and bring you up from them; I will bring you back to the land of Israel. 13 Then you, my people, will know that I am the LORD, when I open your graves and bring you up from them. 14 I will put my Spirit in you and you will live, and I will settle you in your own land. Then you will know that I the LORD have spoken, and I have done it, declares the LORD.' "